Passing the time...

SO we are at 4months & 3 days til the big day...and my big stressor has become physical! It's not just me, it's Justin too. Of course I am 1000x more intense, but Justin did go for a run/walk with me thru the city over to Newport and back home on Sat because he wants to work on his "windedness." ;-) Me...I am terrified of not looking 'amazing' in my dress. I feel that I have not been constant like I used to be with my workout and eating plan. I find it really hard when you have another person to eat with. Justin can eat SSOOO much more than me, and does not have to worry as much about the fat content...but I do! And I feel like I have gotten less tone and bit flabbier. I hate the scale though, bc it does not say that I have gained tons of weight...but I am going on the muscle weighs more than fat, so that is why the scale is not high...my fat doesn't weigh as much. haha..dumb I know!
I miss having my routine and a lot of times the self-control/motivation/discipline that I used to have that gave me the sculpted legs and tighter tummy. I also miss my gym buddies. I used to have @ least 2 girls that I could go to the gym with and workout with...there is that amazing motivation and push when someone is running/lifting or working next to you...the competitive spirit pushes you! I have tried to find a new buddy, but all my friends have opposite schedules of me and Justin has a lot on his plate plus 3 sports a week so he rarely has time to go with me.
I just wish that I could get a regular schedule down that I could plan a workout into that became like a ritual. Maybe once the summer begins I will have that wish granted! What would super cook would be if Justin could become a health/nutritious cook ;-) Some days I come home and see the boys chips, candy or food items that are not on the healthier side and I want to take a bag and throw all of it away! The other day I took the bag of Reese's Eggs in the freezer and put them in a Tupperware container and placed it under the frozen chicken...out of my sight when I open the freezer. I know that it is there but "out of sight = most of the time out of mind"
SO we are 4 months away and I am hoping by that by Sept I am feeling great, tight and tone, and then just have a month that I am just maintaining and having the alterations to my dress to fit around by cute lil body ;-).

Hope everyone is doing well and feeling splendid!

Countdown Begins

Planning Planning PLANNING!!! (and a lil venting)

It is so hard to make sure that you are pleasing everyone, while at the same time pleasing yourself! Right when I think that we have something finished it feels like something else pops up and Nope I still have more to do or figure out! I seriously took a relaxing breath for maybe a day...then the weight of planning fell right back on my shoulders. HOWEVER, I am super happy for school to be slowing down, I think I might actually find some time to get things done with out having that "don't be late to class, don't forget to write that paper, research, write up that report...blah!" I think once all the bridesmaid dresses measurements are in and ordered I will feel lighter...then the reality of having to collect $ from the girls will build up...but one stressor at a time haha!

Honestly I love all this most of the time...it is when those around me nit-pick at my choices, question what I want and make me second guess myself! I just want to make a decision and feel happy and confident about it! Can just once someone say "I think that's great! That is really pretty! I am excited about this." Instead I get the "it's nice BUT..." No one can just have something nice to say with out adding in that BUT or HOWEVER...hate to say it but I just wish those thoughts could be kept to themselves at times (unless it's truly necessary). I just want someone to say that I made a good choice, that they like the dresses and colors and it will be beautiful!!! It's not that hard!

ON a lighter note, I am extremely happy to say that my sister has really stepped up through this wedding process. She has just been a good friend in listening to me vent, run around the Tri-State with me as I thru dresses at her (on numerous occasions) and at times said the nice/right things that eased my nerves when they began to boil! My sis and I have had our ups and downs, but at the end of the day she is always my big sister and one person I believe would drop anything to help me when I am truly in a time of need! YES, we still have our 'sister' moments but in relation to the wedding she has really been awesome, especially more recently as we get closer...(knock on wood that I do not jinx myself).
Alright I am off to make some phone calls, write some emails and plan a wedding!

Miracle!

A miracle occurred yesterday around 3-4 pm...I had decided that on Tuesday I was going to visit all bridal stores-David's/Wendy's all of them and I would pick out a dress. Though knowing myself I asked my sister to come with me bc if i had gone alone I would probably be where I was on Monday...with no Bridesmaid dresses! I ran to David's & Wendy's solo and as soon as I walked in I walked back out...nothing new nothing I wanted to even give a chance...just the same dresses I had seen every where else. Don't get me wrong there were good dresses just nothing that met what I was looking for.
After leaving there I picked Megan up and we traveled to the Reading Wedding District. I was on a mission @ Carrie Karibo's Bridesmaid store! My mother and I had gone to this store last fall when the search first began and found dresses I really liked but they were on the $$$ end, so I chose to look else where. I was so hoping that the dress would pop out and not be too expensive...once that never happened I found myself right back where I started. So I spoke with the consultant, she pulled a few dresses and while Megan got changed into them I looked through fabric swatches. First dress...Megan would not come out of dressing room haha...not her style. Second dress, she came out with a huge smile! Which for my sister is rare! She is not the dress kinda girl...not to mention the dress was blue with a pink sash! NE who, it looked great on her. Complimented her body nicely and you could tell that she looked comfy in it. As she puts it, "I can wear normal underwear, eat dinner and dance in it." It's funny!
I got the price, took a deep breathe and compromised by getting the smaller sash bc the one we loved was $65...wow! But the sash we got we still really like. So I decided to go for it! I filled out paper work on all the girls and called JDS to see if we could just pay for the dresses and have the girls pay us back. Now the dresses are in the higher$$$ so we decided that we will help the girls with paying for them. I am super excited!
FINALLY!!! I feel like a weight has been removed from my body! Now all I have to do is get on the girls to get their measurements in and pay for the dresses. It's an extra chunk of change we were not anticipating using, but I am extremely grateful that JDS is allowing us to do it! Now I just hope that the girls are happy with my selection, I know Megan is so that's a step in the right direction.
I am trying to have the motto 'Do what you like, not what you think everyone else likes or wants.' It's Justin and my big day...not others...and when those others try to rain on our parade I am trying to just dance around and not let it bring me down. Side note: politics of a wedding can drive you crazy! AND it really shows you who your true friends are...which is good & bad all at the same time! Ladies next time you are in a wedding please be a nice bridesmaid, especially if the bride has given you the title Maid of Honor! Smile and be nice...not rude! It's not about you! Sorry I just this lingering thought of frustration and needed to vent a lil!

I hope that everyone that reads this...if anyone...is happy, healthy and received our Save the Date! ;-) Have a great day!